Sunday, June 17, 2012

Father's Day

So I am winding down a week in California for my friend's wedding, and it looks like my dissertation is within moments of being done. I had father's day brunch with my dad, and now I'm in the airport waiting to go back to dc.

I miss Timmy so much -

We did get to see the fireworks show at disneyland... and fireworks will always be for me what the rainbow was for Timmy. A bright, happy, reminder of him. (also, loud and dangerous, just like him!) :-P

Now only if I could hug a firework without getting burned or exploded...

Friday, June 15, 2012

Less than 20 bucks away!

We are rocking on the DONATIONS! So happy to give back to the river that brought Timmy so much happiness!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Monday, June 4, 2012

Damn you, Bose!

Just got an email from Bose, titled "Give Dad Bose sound. Get great values."

Timmy's Bose was one of his favorite things. I remember that he and I were the only ones who could hook it up to the TV and change it to run video games, the dvd player, etc.

He would turn it up so loud for action movies because he loved hearing the bullets fly.

My mom always used it to listen to Pink Floyd's the Wall. She'd try to get me to dance, I would be sheepish, and Timmy would dance with her to make up for it.

Bose's email made me remember these things, made me realize that Timmy isn't around for this father's day, and right now I am crying like a baby, at my desk at work.

Just a reminder that I need to double and redouble my running efforts and get ready to face the marathon.

Our fundraising is up to $2252, just $368 away. Actually, we're closer than that because I know that there is one donation from JDerek that hasn't been added and a check from my dad that is on its way. That's less than the cost of Timmy's Bose, we can do it!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

8.8 miles today

3.7 this morning and 5.1 this afternoon.

Slightly farther than yesterday... :)

Saturday, June 2, 2012

new schedule

just over a month left. They may not contain any deep or insightful writing, but I am going to put my daily mileage totals here, for accountability.

8.7 miles today (8:55 pace)

On another note. I saw three deer grazing outside the national zoo on my way back home, all adolescent. I stopped for five minutes or so to watch them, and got to thinking about rainbows. Tim's mom loved rainbows, and when she passed, he believed that every rainbow he saw was a kind reminder from his ma that she's watching over him.

I was running and thinking how little running I've been doing that lately, and thinking about how Tim needed to watch over me, and part of me really wanted to believe that those deer are a sign that he was. I'd be the first to call that silly, but it's amazing how one yearns to feel like those who have passed are still right there by looking for signs outside. Instead, I remember that Tim is still here, inside. Inside of me and the man he helped me become, but also inside my mom and everyone else whose life he touched. We're $418 from the donation goal, and then I will run my legs and my heart out in his honor. Running a three (my personal goal) is basically impossible given my level of fitness, but finishing the marathon (the goal for Timmy) is something for which nothing could stop me!